Jesus is holding my hand :)

Well, it's been a few months since my last post, but being led to start writing more now. God has been taking me on a journey of healing and cleansing me. Just when I thought I was all good, wham, something in my spirit started getting challenged. I asked God to cleanse me deeply and remove all the strongholds and wrong mindsets I have. Well let me tell ya, it takes time to change 37 years of wrong or twisted thinking! As of lately, I feel called to separate myself from the world as I know it, and soak up as much of God's word and healing of Jesus as possible! I find myself separating from coworkers and listening to a good sermon while I do my side work. I also felt led to get off Facebook for awhile. Am finding I care too much about what others think still and get caught up in worldly things. The one mindset the Lord brought to my attention that has been blocking my own happiness is my own thoughts of "Am I good enough?" Or "Is there something wrong with me?"  I have been in my mind trying to figure out 3 different relationships that all unexpected ended. It deep down was tormenting me with thoughts s of something must be wrong with me. Then I went to church and and heard Danny Gokey sing and tell his testimony and I know God divinely had me there at that moment. God spoke and said, "Be still and know that I am God."  He also reminded me of the words He spoke to me through others these past 2 years saying, "I know the plans I have for you, plans to give you hope and a future, plans to prosper you."  So I bought Danny's cd and listened to it and cried out to God to once and for all, heal on me deep inside. I started feeling almost out of body, like wondering what is real and what isn't. That is when I really asked to hear from God. And a few situations and people led me to look up some you tube videos of sermons relating to me....wow! This is when I finally felt that weight lifted again and the peace of God come upon me. It is clear to me now that God is separating me even more to reset my mind, heart, and soul for good! Too many times I looked back, tried to analyze, got self critical, and compared myself to others. God said to me, you are not like others I have a special plan and purpose for your life, and I am prepping you for it now. So rejoice!! Keep surrendering to me, and never be afraid! Picture Jesus standing beside you holding your hand, because He is! HE is the one fighting all your battles and who is directing your steps. Always keep your eyes on Him and don't look around like Peter did when he walked on the water with Jesus, but then started to sink when he took his eyes off him. So that is what I do now........keep my eyes on Jesus. That way I know the enemy can't touch me and anything happening to me or around me is HE is working together for my good! Soooooo......gotta run to work, but if anybody ever feels lost, look to Jesus, he is the one directing your steps if you are saved by Him. And if you haven't accepted JESUS As the Lord of your life, I urge you to pray to Him now. He died to forgive your sins, cleanse you, heal you, and give you life in abundance, not only here, but for eternity. Just ask him to come into your heart and change it and you are now born again into His kingdom, and are his preciout child who he has a plan for!