Finally found peace.....

So after the nightmare I am still going through of many many small things nagging at me and going wrong in my life, I have finally come to find peace in the midst of turmoil. I have been talking to God and others a lot lately trying to figure things out. After taking a couple small steps of faith to try and get things done, it hit me today......I am to make a fresh, clean, brand new start again......the roach infested apt and all my things in it symbolize my chaotic life circumstances. I am going to LET IT ALL GO.....all my belongings too. It is just 'stuff" that has been a hinderance moving and is tied to my past here. By letting it go, I am also FINALLY FOR GOOD letting my old self and old life go, and trusting in my new life which is being led by the Holy Spirit. I am going to take things day by day like The Word tells you to do, and trust that God is leading my steps into my purpose and calling in life day by day. I think this is all just a challenge for me to be stronger, fear less, and trust in Gods good plan for my life. I KNOW most people think I am crazy and can't understand my ways, but that is okay too. I am not living for them, I am living MY life, and I march to the beat of my own drum, always have. The difference now is, I don't care what people think about me. I am learning to not get attached to possessions and things, and that is the most liberating feeling ever! I am STOKED to get rid of all my stuff! Yepppppp, I may just now be clinically crazy...lol. The reason I know I am in God's will is because i have a peace inside now I didn't have before. My mom texted me and is very upset at my decisions and thinks I am not being rational, and I need my stuff. She just doesn't understand because this is for ME to understand, not anybody else. Anyways, better stop cuz I gotta get some sleep. But these blogs are just flowing out of me without me even thinking about what I am going to say. They are helping me to gain great clarity over my life and I thank God for giving me this outlet. what is next? Only God knows....and that is exciting to me!! To be continued.....