Living by faith not sight :)

One thing I am learning is that when all hell breaks loose in my life that is when God is up to something.....He is shaping me, molding me, testing me, purifying all the negative things in my mind and heart. I went through a process of being broken down to really learn that He is my sole provider for all good things. Also, that He is ALWAYS with me even when i dont FEEL His presence. I am in a better place now, and am more in tune with hearing his voice and seeing His hand in my situation. As He brings me gifts and the desires of my heart now, I am also learning that He will never just bless me so I can selfishly be happy. His plan is bigger for me, and you. At times now I am in awe of his goodness in my life, yet tend to revert back into my old mindsets and patterns. That is when He pulls back a little i feel, to show me that the higher level of the blessing, the more faith and trust I must place in Him, and to not rely on the world. My test right now is to live by faith, not by sight. There is an enemy fighting me to steal everything God has in store for me, and as long I dont let fear, doubt, anxiety, jealousy, insecurities rule my mind, instead remember and study His promises for me, that neither blessings nor trials will bring me out of his will. It is a day by day, conscious choice to remember the sacrifice His son made for me to carry out His amazing purpose and plans for my life. I guess it all boils down to the fact there is an invisible spiritual world all around us, and once I keep my eyes on His world and Kingdom, I will never fall or fail. Because if I do, He is using it for my good. Now thats a peaceful way to think and live. Life is not about material things or living up to societys standards, it is about living in such a way that Gods love moves through me to bring His kingdom and purpose to earth today. It may be in the tiniest of ways, but those tiny ways always defeat the enemy who is decieving us all. Just keep keeping on, remembering He shed His blood for me, and nothing is too small or big for Him to be concerned about. day by day, relying on His will being done through me and to me. Glad I have this wisdom, cuz I was lost for years without it, seeking it in all the wrong places. I no longer live for myself only, I live to carry out His will. Hope this blesses someone, if not, it sure does bless me.