late night insominiac thoughts....about God

I used to think about God like this......like He was a genie and I would give him my wishes, hoping he would grant them.  When most of my wishes never came true, or after they did and then something bad happened, I would question God and say...,,,Why me? Am I not good enough? Do i not deserve to be blessed? I must have done something wrong so I can't be blessed. So i would do my best and TRY to be good or better and please God, just so He would bless me...........wow!! Finally realized God gave me His Holy Spirit to come live inside me and guide me into all truth and ways. Jesus died so I could be free from the law which no man can live up to. Once He died and said "It is finished," the moment you believed Him and put your trust and faith in Him, that is the moment He saves you from the destruction of the devil, and gives you His Holy Spirit, to guide you in all truth and understanding. God gave us a new spirit, and it is our job to renew our minds by reading and hearing His Word, so that we can become transformed into new and perfect spiritual beings through Jesus Christ's sacrifice. We become in right standing with God by the blood of Jesus. That is the best news you can ever recieve!! So stop trying to be righteous, you already are through believing in Jesus! Yes, its that simple!!  He also gives us the ability to chsnge the own course of our lives by speaking out victory and blessings over our lives. There is power in speaking Gods word! So YOU have the power now to bring blessings to your own life and others by speaking the truth over it...Gods word.  Quit blaming God when things go wrong in your life, He loves you, and will never let anything bad ruin you, He will ALWAYS cause that bad thing to bring good in your life. You just need to have patience, seek god first, and speak His Word over your situation. Don't focus on your circumsyances, focus on your redeemer and the Truth. I haven't even touched the surface here, but l aleady feel that i may have lost you............enough for now, just felt led to write these thoughts down as they came into my mind. Hope someone got a little blessing from this, I know i did!