Torn between the new and the old

I am a this weird, awkward time in my life where I am torn.....I have so many things that I have went through emotionally, financially, and even physically over the last couple years. I am at a point where I want to move forward and into all new things, and an all new me, yet part of wants to go go back to the way things were, and the old me. That is what I knew, that is where I was comfortable. Even part of me wants to stay and dwell in the hurt and pain I have been through. It's like my spirit knows I am ready to move forward into my destiny, but my emotions and circumstances want to stay in my past. I literally am fighting a war with myself and the world I feel.....sounds dramatic, but it is how I feel. I think to myself, "Life was so much easier when I lived it only for pure enjoyment. People liked you better when you were the party girl. You were HAPPIER when you gave into all your desires and wants on impulse...."    But I KNOW that this is just the part of me that God is still refining and chiseling to form me into the woman He has called me to be.......Nothing in life worthwhile ever seems to come easy, but when it comes, it will be real and lasting and in Gods perfect will. I will wait and endure this part of the transformation process with good cheer, knowing God has a good plan for my life, and everything happening He is using for my good. And so the battle of Spirit vs flesh goes on.....but the good news is, I have the Grace of Jesus fresh and new every day, no matter what mistakes I make. And although I still battle at times to go back to my old ways, it does get easier and lessened the more I renew my mind with the Word. On that note, I am off to watch a TD Jakes sermon before I fall asleep....NOTHING better than getting fresh revelation from hearing God's word!!